Well, I feel like I'm back to square one with the health stuff. I tried to have a "normal" day and do "normal" things yesterday. I did a load of laundry, I washed the dishes, I swept, I cooked and I overdid it. My chest is hurting really bad--it feels like my pectoral muscle on my right side is shredded into bits and my cartilage is still inflamed and I'm basically incapacitated again. You don't realize how many movements involve your chest 'til something like this happens... Breathing hurts, moving hurts, laughing, coughing and sneezing hurts, I can't drive or do housework or much of anything else. After 52 days of sleeping flat on my back and "taking it easy" I'm still not able to do normal tasks.
This is slightly inconvenient and a bit frustrating. (That, of course, is a vast understatement.)
Okay, enough complaining...
I just watched Joyce Meyer on us.god.tv and got really blessed. She preached back to me what the Lord's been talking to me about lately. It was really neat. The Lord must be dealing with me. Hmmm...
God has miraculously healed me on more than one occasion and as you can imagine, I've asked Him to do that several times over the past few months. Obviously, that's not His best for me right now. So, I'm praying for understanding and a humble and teachable heart so that all this pain and frustration can become something useful.
Here are my notes from Joyce's sermon:
-There are no crosses that don't hurt.
-The only way to get to the life-side is to walk through the death-side.
-All day long I need to humble myself by waiting on God instead of trying to do everything myself. (Help me, Lord!)
-I need to humble myself by agreeing with God about my sin and being willing to apologize when I've committed an offense.
-When we die to our wills we can truly live.
-We've got to realize it's not all about "me."
-You cannot be selfish and happy at the same time.
Die to self. What is God dealing with you about? Whatever He says, just do it and you'll be happy sooner. You cannot be happy and selfish.
Which part of you are you going to keep happy? You're spirit man or your flesh. Make a decision NOT to go around the mountain one more time. Let God have His way.
Amen. With my eating habits, etc., even if I moan and groan, God, have your way! I'm certainly moaning and groaning, now, so God, change me, help me to cooperate and be changed!!!
The only thing that stands between me and greatness is my flesh/self. I've gotta humble myself and obey God and not me.
I've got to stop asking myself how I feel about things. That's the key. Don't even consult yourself.
I need to pray and process and really think about how God might want to deal with me right now.
The Clark gals dropped by today and it was such a breath of fresh air. They were in the neighborhood and it was so nice to see them. I was at a pretty low point and they prayed for me. The phrase "sweet fruit" came up and Lydee sensed that all the stop and go junk with the recording process (due to my health stuff) is somehow being used by the Lord to accomplish something good. I do trust Him. His ways are always higher and always better. You're a good, good God!!!
Another thing that's happening is that we're making some pretty big strides on the studio. NFriends purchased the equipment (amazing, unbelievably cool blessing!!!), but we're needing to construct the actual studio. They need 3 songs, which I'm thrilled to work on, except that this crazy chest stuff is making it tricky. Anyway, we're starting the recording process this weekend. (Oww... typing is starting to hurt my chest.) I gotta quit. There's more to tell, but I've already learned that if I don't learn to lay off then I'm going to be laying out a lot longer...
This is slightly inconvenient and a bit frustrating. (That, of course, is a vast understatement.)
Okay, enough complaining...
I just watched Joyce Meyer on us.god.tv and got really blessed. She preached back to me what the Lord's been talking to me about lately. It was really neat. The Lord must be dealing with me. Hmmm...
God has miraculously healed me on more than one occasion and as you can imagine, I've asked Him to do that several times over the past few months. Obviously, that's not His best for me right now. So, I'm praying for understanding and a humble and teachable heart so that all this pain and frustration can become something useful.
Here are my notes from Joyce's sermon:
-There are no crosses that don't hurt.
-The only way to get to the life-side is to walk through the death-side.
-All day long I need to humble myself by waiting on God instead of trying to do everything myself. (Help me, Lord!)
-I need to humble myself by agreeing with God about my sin and being willing to apologize when I've committed an offense.
-When we die to our wills we can truly live.
-We've got to realize it's not all about "me."
-You cannot be selfish and happy at the same time.
Die to self. What is God dealing with you about? Whatever He says, just do it and you'll be happy sooner. You cannot be happy and selfish.
Which part of you are you going to keep happy? You're spirit man or your flesh. Make a decision NOT to go around the mountain one more time. Let God have His way.
Amen. With my eating habits, etc., even if I moan and groan, God, have your way! I'm certainly moaning and groaning, now, so God, change me, help me to cooperate and be changed!!!
The only thing that stands between me and greatness is my flesh/self. I've gotta humble myself and obey God and not me.
I've got to stop asking myself how I feel about things. That's the key. Don't even consult yourself.
I need to pray and process and really think about how God might want to deal with me right now.
The Clark gals dropped by today and it was such a breath of fresh air. They were in the neighborhood and it was so nice to see them. I was at a pretty low point and they prayed for me. The phrase "sweet fruit" came up and Lydee sensed that all the stop and go junk with the recording process (due to my health stuff) is somehow being used by the Lord to accomplish something good. I do trust Him. His ways are always higher and always better. You're a good, good God!!!
Another thing that's happening is that we're making some pretty big strides on the studio. NFriends purchased the equipment (amazing, unbelievably cool blessing!!!), but we're needing to construct the actual studio. They need 3 songs, which I'm thrilled to work on, except that this crazy chest stuff is making it tricky. Anyway, we're starting the recording process this weekend. (Oww... typing is starting to hurt my chest.) I gotta quit. There's more to tell, but I've already learned that if I don't learn to lay off then I'm going to be laying out a lot longer...
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