Whew!!! I'm done. I've kicked up a lot of dust this semester and I'm a bit dazed after finishing. In the last few weeks, I think my goal literally became finishing just so I could attain couch potato-dom and not have to do any more work.
Yesterday I was talking to Sam and telling her that I was almost done and that as of today (Friday) I would also have fulfilled my commitment for early morning prayer. She said, "That's great, Mom! Now you can sleep as late as you want and bum around for the rest of your life!!!" That really struck me. Is that really what I'm after? Because, sometimes that's how I live -- like the best thing ever is to avoid all pain and work and just nestle myself in comfort and ease.
This morning, reluctant as I was to leave my warm bed and drive to the church for prayer the Lord was so good to meet me there. (He always does. It's really pretty stinkin' amazing.) Today was such a neat time where the Lord did a phenomenal job dusting off my vision, letting me see it afresh and then handing it back to me. I'm kind of in awe. I totally expected to leave prayer today and plan on moving onto the next thing without looking back, but the Lord allowed me to see how the events of my life have unfolded in such a way as to remind me that my home and my calling are found in His presence and in the place of prayer. Nothing about early morning prayer appeals to the natural man, but it is in that secret place that the heart of Heaven can be found and I am changed. That's worth the inconvenience of missing a little sleep.
I was just listening to Barry read aloud to the kids. The first lines he read served as yet another confirmation of what the Lord has been speaking to me today. Here it is:
"Life was hard. Life was good. Most folks think this is a contradiction, but I have learned that the hardest, most difficult times of my life caused the most growth in my character. At the very least, those hard times prepared me for a better future." Kingdom's Edge by Chuck Black
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